Humility Stinks

This squat thing is really getting to me.  I'm frustrated that I suck at it and I'm frustrated that Sam knows I suck at it. I'm frustrated when Sam only allows me to back squat 95 pounds during strength sets and 65 pounds during a WOD. I'm frustrated because my ego is making me frustrated.  So what's the lesson?  CrossFit is about being your best, not about comparing yourself to anyone else (including your old improperly squatting self).  I know that I need to suck it up and keep at it or else I'm gonna end up walking with a cane in my older years.  I also know that by working on it now, I'm building the foundation for (hopefully) superior performance in the future.  This is just a really difficult life lesson for me at the moment and I'm admittedly struggling with it every day.  If anyone has any advice on how to handle this with better humility, I'm all for it.  Please bestow your wisdom.

                            Please God, if this is me let me at least dress better than this....

Some exciting things are happening at CFGR.  By the way, at this point in blog reading, I know you are all totes wanting to start CrossFit.  Have you checked out our website?  Some amazingly creative person made it.  I have no idea who she could be.....except it was me.  Yeah.  Check it out.  Anyway, back to the exciting things.  When I was in college, my friend Jack started calling me bulljiver because I used to say that I had news but then wouldn't tell him.  I didn't like that nickname and didn't understand why he gave it to me.  Except now I do because those exciting things I mentioned?  I can't tell you yet. Just know they are sweet.  If you want to know the truth, I really want to tell you but Sam doesn't want to yet.  He's being conservative with the news and he's the boss so I guess I have to listen to him.  Just know it's pretty awesome and will make you all very jealous excited.

Since I can't yet share the big news, I will tell you about some new equipment that we have.  First up is the prowler.  I haven't had the pleasure of working with it yet, but I hear it's super fun. Well, that's what people would say on opposite day.  Yeah.....it's a bitch that prowler. Rawr!

                                     He's being a bit of a P with these light weights....sheesh

Sam also got himself some big cement balls.  He likes them.  They make him happy.  They look like this.

We haven't used them yet.  I think they are a lawsuit waiting to happen (what?? It's the lawyer in me) but Sam likes to remind us that we signed waivers.  So I guess it's legit.  I have no idea what we're gonna do with them but they just sit at the gym and remind us that if we step out of line, they can be incorporated into a WOD to put us all in the hurt box.

I feel like I have a lot more to say but I truly have that feeling inside that it's going to be an emotional and personal post and I'm just not ready to get into that quite yet.  So I'll end this one by saying that I made the paleo chocolate sweet potato brownies from PaleOMG.  They are non-dairy and contain no refined sugar.  They're pretty healthy actually.  For realz.  They tasted good...like real good.  I think, however, that they could be considered more of a sweet bread than a brownie. It's the cinnamon. Either way....put them in your mouth.  Well, bake them first and then put them in your mouth.