Respect Your Body

This is a difficult but necessary post to write. I'm struggling with how to make my point without giving too much away about something that I do not have the right to give away.  Geez, this is already confusing.

Ok.  Deep breath.  Two days ago, we received some news about my best friend that's a little scary.  Though I truly believe it will be ok and that her entire support system will be with her every step of the way, it is the kind of news that can stop you in your tracks.  It makes no sense and it's not fair and there's no rhyme or reason for it.  Look, I'm no stranger to these WTF moments in life.  Believe me - I've dealt with them more times than I would wish on anyone but it never makes it any easier.

What is truly dumbfounding to me is that the situation with my friend is totally random.  Randomness like that chills me to my bones.  I might be a leeeeeetle bit of a control freak.  It's hard for me to open up, break down walls, trust others and let them in.  I don't share much about my personal life/thoughts/feelings to...well, anyone.  That's one reason I started this blog - an experiment for me to see if I can actually get better at that.  So when something is completely and utterly life changing, yet out of my control, I have a very hard time dealing with it.  I spend nights awake thinking about it.  I spend hours during the day trying to find an answer, a reason, a tangible "this is why" that I can hold onto, even when I know it doesn't exist.

One thing this situation has reinforced for me is how much we need to respect our bodies, our lives.  We only get one...one short little life to live.  One body in which to live it in.  Learn about it, understand it, take care of it.  Push it to it's limits and then nourish it in it's recovery.  Fuel it with as much purity as possible and then treat it with the occasional rich indulgence that makes it buzz.  Explore and play and laugh and get dirty and make your mark on the earth every chance you have.  Stomp through the world and let your presence be known while respecting all of it's nooks and crannies.  Take chances, even if it's scary.  Leap but have a parchute.  Trust others but put yourself first.  Ask why but understand that sometimes you will never get an answer.  Find peace with that.  Appreciate every second of every minute of every day because we will never get it back.  Do not take anything or anyone for granted, especially yourself.  Smile. Laugh. Believe.

I love you, B.