W30 Day 10 Crabby Pants

The title of this post should say it all.  According to the Whole 30 timeline, days 5 and 6 are supposed to be the days where you want to kill everyone.  Didn't happen me.  Until today.  Day 10 is the day I officially got cranky.  Did I want to kill everyone?  No.  Do I want to quit? Nope.  But still...it kinda sucks.  Today was also the day where I wanted to eat all of the things.  Not necessarily non-W30 things, but just....something.  Anything.  Constantly.  Basically, I was hangry today......hungry, cranky, tired. And if I see another pizza commercial I may shoot my television.  Yeah, not my best day ever.

Breakfast:
The usual

Lunch:
Two hardboiled eggs
Organic cherry tomatoes
Pistachios

Dinner:
Steak
Sweet potato fries w/homemade mayo
Brussel sprouts

So let's talk about this dinner.  I originally intended to eat leftovers (either tacos or chicken). But as the day progressed and my crankiness grew and my hanger started to get cray, I decided that I wanted steak and starch.  I realized I haven't had much in the way of starchy carbs while on the plan and haven't once had a sweet potato.  As soon as I ate dinner, I felt A TON better.  Lesson learned - and leftovers for another day.

Sleep:
Last night I had a hard time falling asleep. I probably got 5 hours which for me is not enough.  Lack of sleep directly contributes to my anxiety.  It's a little higher than it was but still fairly low...and no panic attack last night which tends to happen when I lay in bed for a long time without falling asleep. So I'll label that as progress.

Activity:
I took an involuntary rest day as I had a meeting that ran way late and I missed both CrossFit classes.  I could have worked out at home or ran on the treadmill, but given how my day has been, I decided to relax a little.


To copy directly from the Whole 30 site...

Days 10-11: The Hardest Days

Fact: you are most likely to quit your Whole30 program on Day 10 or 11. By this point, the newness of the program has worn off. You’ve made it through most of the unpleasant physical milestones, but you’ve yet to experience any of the “magic” the program promises. You’re still struggling to establish your new routine (read: you’ve eaten eggs prepared ten different ways over the last ten days), and while you’ve been trying really hard to have a good attitude, today you are incredibly aware of all the foods you’re “choosing not to eat right now.”  Everywhere you look, you see the things you “can’t” have: the melted cheese on a greasy burger, the creaminess of that double-scoop cone, the cold beer in your best friend’s tailgate cooler. Dammit, this is hard! And right now you’re wondering if the results will really be as good as “they” all say it is.

You’re cranky, you’re impatient, and you’re really, really tempted to just eat the stupid cheese.

This is where you really start to experience the psychological hold that your food habits have on you. You’ve put in a lot of effort to get to where you are right now, but you’re still waiting for the results you’re hoping to see. Your  brain tells you that you deserve some kind of reward (don’t you?) and, of course, we’ve been conditioned to think of food as the best reward out there. Right now, you’re craving that ice cream, beer, or whatever treat you think would make for just the right reward. But, instead of that treat, you’re standing face to face with the realization that you have 20 more days of deprivation ahead of you.

The key here is to redefine your idea of reward.  Think long and hard about the foods you’re grieving and ask yourself what need you’re expecting them to fulfill.  Are you feeling anxious and looking for reassurance?  Are you feeling sad, and looking for something to cheer you up? Are you worried you won’t successfully finish the program, and it’s easier to self-sabotage than fail? Remind yourself that food cannot fill that void for you—cannot make you feel truly accomplished, comforted, calm, happy, beautiful. Then, find another way to fill that need that does not involve those foods. Prepare yourselves for these days, knowing that all you have to do is see them through to the other side before things get much, much easier.

Don't give up people, cuz I'm sure not.  The best is yet to come.  But I could really use some boost from all of you.  How is your Whole 30 going? Where are you at? How are you feeling?  Please share and let's do this!